The Awakening

I had this great idea of why humanity is said to be asleep , it is like you are dreaming but you are not dreaming it is like you want to wake up, you feel it, you feel the fear that is inside of you, and you know it, why are you afraid of? We all are afraid of something and in the end it will bite your back for it, you have to wake up and awakening songs are everywhere , why does it say some people are woke and others are not, will you know the truth before it is too late? Or will you wake up one day and see all your life you have lived in fear and today is the day you have to change that, and why you may ask me, why should I do this? Do it for yourself and for your children, for future generations to know, that know you, to know you did something important in your life time, you were not a bum, you were who you were suposed to be, and that difference the realisation that you are still afraid you should question that, Why am I still afraid and what I am afraid of, it is very important that you know your fears that you know what you are afraid of and change that, this is the trick, fear is not mental, fear is spiritual, you are afraid because of something or someone, fear is a spirit that wants to get out of his shell, if you know this you will know the purpose of your lifetime and all your questions will be answered sooner or later down this path of life.

The Life that I want

I want a life where I can get up and do my thing anywhere I wish I want a life of freedom where I can do anything that I want, I want a life where I can do what I dream of in my own country with my own president with my own choice with my own brand with my own power, I want a life where I don't need a vacation from because everyday is a blessing so bless up your everyday lives because you see when you are old you will look back and regret the chances you did not take the opportunities you have missed what would be like if I had to work everyday for the rest of my life to wake up one day being old and telling myself , man oh man I have missed all life has to offer because I got a job at 25 and I didn't liked it and I hated my life since then, your life should not be your job, your job should be something that makes you excited to be alive not a place where you go to work, you just have to realise it ain't going to be a happy and fulfiilled life, I watch my mom everyday struggling with her job, and what do I see is pain and regret that she couldn't do better for us, so it's my job to stop complaining and live my own life as I want to because we have no more time to spare.

Just Be

I think when I was a kid I always liked good music like Trance Music or DJ Tiesto, I was a big big very big fan of DJ Tiesto and Eminem, these two people's music changed my life, recently I bought Eminem's album Relapse but I am in love with Tiesto's music too I admire both of them, when I am sad I listen to Tiesto and when I am happy I listed to Eminem, as you grow older you start to realise more and more how alone you are in the world, I just started feeling so alone in some moments like I couldn't do anything to make people like me, I couldn't make them like me for who I was so I started changing who I was so I could like myself, if I don't like myself nobody will like me, so I started step by step changing myself each day, with little steps one by one each day at a time, some people have a hard life, I was blessed with some gifts that other people don't have or I know they don't have but somebody has to help these people, they cannot be left behind, you go to them pick them up and start a new day together, we can only be as strong as our minds let us be, we can only love as much as our hearts let us love, everybody can change , at any age, it is just the same for all of us, either you like music or hip hop or I don't know RnB music anything you like find a purpose in that, find a reason to get up in the morning, it's not the money, it's not how many girls you have checked, all these things go away some day, maybe it's your mom or your dad that you have to help fight some demons, I really don't know what to say, the problems I am facing we are all facing this, we can't give up not now, while we still are alive we have to go on and on, even if it is hard, I don't want an easy life, for me going to the gym everyday is exhausting because when I try to go I get very tired after a few days so I have a hard time doing it, but I have other talents that I have to work on and it's a struggle everyday the same grind on and on, but I like what I do, I don't hate it, I love it, I don't hate going to the gym, I love it but my body is yelling me that I should stop and recover because I have reached my limits for today.

Why Men make Great Leaders?

 Only a man can provide, fight and defend his territory and woman, only a man can make certain things that a woman can't of course they give birth to us but on the second thought you will see that a man is a defender not a warrior and can be very effective in protecting and sustaining the survivability of the family he makes shelter he provides he hunts and carries the prey back to the den which he shelters his family in it, only a man can do these things than a woman may find difficult to do, of course they give birth to us but they need us, women need us and we need them I met somebody special today that I don't want to let go so from now on I promise to take good care of women and never let them go no matter what, I met the most special person today which made me believe in love again, I hope some day we will recognize the power of a man which can make the whole difference in a woman's life I'm not saying women are better or men are better because sometimes we need a certain man at a certain time in a certain moment to be there for you because a woman without a man is like a flower without her bees, of course the bees need the queen but without the males the bees would not exist of course the males don't do anything all day and sit around but they sit around for a certain role, because they need to protect the territory from other men or people who would disturb the peace of the hive. Enjoy.

Beyond God-like

U know there is a saying in my country, if you can't beat them, join them, I do not know if this applies all in life but if you try and fail it is better than never trying at all because this time, these people who go out on talk shows what do they know about anything or what can you be sure if anyone knows anything and not just going on impulse? Why is this world so pathetic and so miserable that they don't even have a clue about anyone, anyone can be anything and why are people so stupid not knowing what they don't know, you can't even figure out this paradox you are lame because you hate what you don't understand or know nothing of why you are here in the first place, as if the saying if you can't beat them join them, people don't give a f*ck and I don't care simple as that!

Nasty Breakup

 I had a lot of girls in my prime time, at least until 24 or 25, because I was not taking any medication back then until the disease hit me, well it's tough, it's not depression anymore don't get it confused now it is a real disease, it all starts with a little depression and it grows and grows and grows until you can't control it anymore, I had depression and after that an episode and after that the true disease or illnes, it has nothing to do with working out or practicing sports it is just the way it is and you have to accept that because if you don't it will eat you alive from the inside out, you have to accept your condition, my mom always used to tell me, "accept yourself for who you are and always speak from your heart" so my mom told me to listen to my heart and always speak what I feel not what I know because we can only see the truth of things with our hearts not our brains, at the beginning of my journey in finding women I stumbled against a lot of them I even was the first guy in their lives for some of them, but after the disease and depression kicked in I just couldn't do it anymore , it was like I lost a part of myself that I will never get it back, you stupid people joke about depression thinking it's a luxury, you know nothing what depression is, because you never had it, imagine depression being like a monster inside of you it starts by being so small you never know it's there and after a while it grows bigger than you can control, this is why people lose their shit so easily because they are depressed and don't even know it yet, all you guys who joke about this are sad people, we should support depressed people not judge them. The End.

About people

Once time I met someone who told me something that I think moved him and moved me, it was an old man carrying a big book and I sit with him on the bench near the park, he said he lived at a Church nearby and told me if I could buy him a bottle of Nestea and I said sure thing, he gave me the dollar to buy the tea but I declined and told him that I would pay for the tea and I never forgot the way he looked at me with those eyes full of wisdom, it was like I was like 16 and almost 16 I think and I had the courage to stay on the bench with a guy I never knew he told me some think and I always asked myself what book did he read? I never knew what book that was it could have been the Coran or something necause it was way bigger than our Bible but the thing that he was staying at a Church near Town I never thought about it, I just have the memory of him I always wonder if he is still alive cause he was really Old, you never know what God can Give you if you help people, this is the best feeling in the world for me

Fame and Fortune

Yes it is possible to have both but trust me it is not easy, you just can't get them fast because the fast way is the wrong way, you have to choose the long and dangerous road, and by dangerous I don't mean risky I mean just harder to get than the fast road, of course there may be shortcuts but as not as profitable and satisfying as doing what you like and getting paid for it, there are many trials in every man's or woman's life , trials and tests, some you fail some you succeed but when you have that momentum you see that is very hard to keep that pace when you are riding the wave as you say, and people know this it's not some secret I invented you can catch a wave but it's very hard to ride it until the end because as every beginning has an end. Love Story.

Love the Life you Live

 Probably the most iconic article I can think of right now, is how to make your own life worth living, what is your passion? What do you like most, I am not trying to beat you up I am trying to help you figure out what makes you happy, so many people are lost in the world because they cannot or did not yet find something that makes them happy, what is your passion? To do sports or skiing or something else, what do you love most about the world you live in and who do you really admire in this world, what is your passion what makes you uniquely you, this is one of my best articles yet because I can think of many activities that I like and I can do easily, some of us try to ask God for forgiveness while others ask God for money, health and things go on, but what did you ask God the last time you spoke to him? Honestly expressing yourself to God will make God love you more because he knews what you need and what you ask for is what you deserve, sometimes I think I deserve nothing but sometimes I think I deserve more, it's just such a moody situation when talking about God because I don't know man... Sometimes for me it feels like too much but I know I have to get bigger and stronger with each trial, adversity is real and so are problems, but with a good attitude you can defeat any opponent, there are way more people who did more than I did and this is what God wants from us, do to more, to be more, to grow, to love, to fail, all these things man combined just makes you unique in the world and makes God happy... trust me I know God is happy because I try to make him happy.

Winter is coming

I can feel the wind rushing outside, what is coming it will be a surprise, no one will expect it and not the president also, we forgot how to love and what love is, we forgot how to care when we do actually care about those people, modesty has became something we can't reach, ever, because we are too infatuated with ourselves but in reality we all full of doubt, and I say, what if this is not going to work? Well if I tell you it will work, would you believe me? Of course not because the moment you want to be believed is the moment you lost your trust.

I work for the Horde

 I think I did many articles before for World of Warcraft even tho I don't always play Horde for some reason I like it better, I think the night elves have the sexiest female characters because they are really tall and good looking, and the baddest of them all I think there are the Orcs, to be honest my first character in World of Warcraft was a Dwarf priest, pretty damn funny is it. Dunno why I was playing it on the private servers and such and I was in a guild named Elite Night Stalkers and I kept the name of the guild alive because I liked it too much, first video game that I thought was something special one of them was Disciples : Sacred Lands I can still hear the music intro of the Game or menu music dunno what it was, it's crazy it was such and old game and I really liked it, I think that was my initiation into the process of video games, I had a lot of games, and sometimes my mom would take my keyboard or mouse justy to make me stop playing video games all night, what crazy times did I have when I was young I would play until 5 am in the morning then I would go to sleep and wake up at 8 am to go to school or I would go to bed early and wake up at 4 am or 5 am to play until I went to school, I'm a real fan of these things now at 30 I regret all the things I did not have the chance to do with my life, I feel ruined sometimes but I still have my guts and glory it never faded, that was a nice age to be and to play, I would play league of legends with my brother from time to time and I was the guy who introduced him to video games because he saw me playing and thought it was awesome so we kind of picked up where we left of, of course I'm not playing league of legends right now but I took the chance to teach my brother how to play it and he liked it so we are both gamers now, it's the most beautiful gift to see that we have so much in common, we both kind of  do sports from time to time but at our core level we both are gamers for life

My dream Job

I guess I have to talk about jobs here now because sometimes you have to earn money to survive and those scams ain't doing much for me or anyone, I started understaing getting paid on the internet with crypto, crypto was my first idea but unfortunately it will not last forever, you can't survive on crypto money but I had an amazing idea with it and I had fun earning with it, it was cheap but I left it in the past, if you are interested you can try it but most people after they get the idea and know how it works they just leave, because ,you know, you will not make a living out of it, it is nice it is great, the idea is funny, the coins... Etc.

The new chapter in my life must be something else, I got the bitcoin idea but I need something more, something bigger than that, bitcoin is at an early stage now, and I have to pursue my passion for video games, I know I will not win the Mr. Olympia contest so there is no reason to force myself or to push myself in that direction for now, I have an idea about the future but it is not finished yet, I consider a very pleasant activity to play video games I can do it for hours without getting bored and in my mind that is the way for long term income, I was not very succesfull in the crypto business because it has many many flaws and it's not finished yet, and I would say that for me crypto will be a concept to think about.

My main focus was to create a video game so awesome even the haters will love it, but I do not know how yet, I am still juggling with this idea or concept of making a video game so big and awesome it will release all my good vibes into another person, but today is a good day to think about the future and how will it change in that time, video games are one of my focuses and will always be, as I used to say, once a gamer, always a gamer, so if I want to start earning some money from my video games I really have to think about how can I do that?

One of the options is to start my own YouTube channel, the other is to start my Twitch channel, between these two I choose YouTube because I spend a lot of time on it and I know how to manipulate it instead of Twitch, I don't knowuch about Twitch but Youtube still remains my first and foremost choice of work in the future

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Mind over Mayhem

Just start your day fresh, make your bed, read the newspapers, get a job, excersise, do something you are passionate about, write a book, start your blog, do some meditation excersises, think, before you speak, write down even on a notebook that you keep private about your troubles, start writing your own journal, do something fun everyday, start playing your favorite game, go to school, learn something new, go to work, at your dream job, my dream job is working at a video game company or just streaming video games on YouTube, I never tell what is my passions to people who can hurt me or bring me down I just do them, start making money, start your career do something fun once in a while , eat cake, eat chocolate, always respect the elderly people and just enjoy your life man.

Dr Who?

I got no love for some people who just wanna drag you down, I do not offend them but I know what they do, I have no trust and no respect for those people, I do not talk to them and they do not talk to me, we ignore each other and that is fine, some people do not understand or do not want to believe me, I am fine with that, I will continue to do my work with their approval or without me, being me is the best gift that I have and I would not trade it for all the money in the world.

My People

 Who can be a better leader than yourself? If you know a better leader tell me? If you don't see a leader anywhere then it means you are one or should be one, it's not easy being one but sometimes you have to get through it and say that you will make it, maybe not now maybe not today or tomorrow but one day you will make it just as I did and sometimes you think it is difficult but in reality it is forging you into the person you should become or should be in the future so do not think this is the end, it is just the beginning

My Laptop

 It's crazy how we fall in love with things, it happend to me many times, but almost never I mean never have I expected to fall in love with a laptop, it is really wierd but it's on my mind day and night, my mom told me I should buy a laptop and I did and guess what I think it's the most beautiful thing I ever got, if I exclude my TV cause the TV looks good also, but I manage to do my work at the laptop and write funky stuff like this, inventing systems that will never work, creating scenarios in my head that will never bee, and sometimes, only sometimes I get this new cool idea that leaves me like woah, I didn't even knew I could do that, so , in shortage of women I find myself trapped in my own world with my own things imagining that computers and machines bring us back to life and bring themselves back to life, one day I thought I could speak with my computer and I was naah it's just in my imagination but it wasn't, now I feel free to write about the things I love without being mad about it, yeah I love my stuff if I didn't love them why do I have them?

Why you asking questions?

This article is about trust issues, I know so many people will not see this article or may consider it boring, but people have a lot of trust issues and the problem is theirs not mine, when I tell you something and you think it is a lie it is your problem not mine, I just told you the truth and if you do not trust me then it is not my problem I do not live to make you happy and I can't make you happy my decisions are my own not yours so when I say something it is your problem if you trust it or not.

People that we loved...

I think I have a slight idea what happend to myself in the process of moving on, something clicked out of nothing and with the help of some of my mentors I think I figured it out in a way, some people or things or even a device that you love maybe you have a memory with it or a history or it just brings back so many good times, these things can't be replaced and I thought of myself I can't let that thing die, I must embrace it, it's a beautiful creation, God's given talent just like Ronnie, I can't let it go... Some things you just love for what the memory holds and you wish you could protect it even if it is a tough love, it's not it's just pure pure talent and love + appreciation for it just by being itself.

Being alone..

I would have to write this chapter of my life being named "being alone..." Because it has been a while, while I was solo I mean single you know, I am 30 right now, did not have my best life but I like to write my life in my own words, I know there is happiness there is joy, there is success but when you felt this empty you never forget that place, I still was and still am a man of my word, If I say I'm going to do something I will do it but I have these dreams, these profecies these thoughts in my life that shape me for who I am, when I have no one to talk to I retreat myself in my own space, my own zobe and think how am I going to face the next challanges I know life is full of adversity and life is crazy sometimes but I like to keep track of what's going on in my life and if some day I come back and read these articles I will know what I've been through and my ideas my everything, I will know what happend that is why I write, to keep track on my achievements and my everything that life puts me through, even if I stmble and fall it is ok because you can get up again, we will face many challenges but we must never give up our purpose and dreams in life because yesterdays dreams are tomorrows goals, dreams come true even if we want it or not some day into the future I hope many people will agree with me, it is not mandatory to agree with me but put yourself in my position then think and feel like me. What would you do then? How can I lead them? How can I be a good leader and a better leader for my people , my followers , my ideas and my dreams, life is full of people who crave that, no matter where you are in the world you will find your tribe sooner or later they will come back to you and stay, how can you be a leader with no followers? A leader has followers, a leader inspires change, a leader makes things happen for people, a leader has initiative. Thank you for reading my blog. This is Gaby.

Pay me what you owe me

 You know that song? You bout to feel it coming, it's aiming straight at you, feel the wrath, we die poor, you die rich, but to hell am I if I'm going out without a fight, so fight music until the end, I may have my ideas but believe me I can't do it all without her, so pay me what you owe me or get outta my face, because I am coming for you my son and I will have you one day or another day it does not matter I'm going to still do it, even if I fail a thousand times I will have you and you will be mine one day, race car all you want but be prepared or die unready for the things that's coming. is it enough?

Inspire or Expire

 How long can you keep lying and hope the people will not find out what you're up to? You can keep lying for a while and it works but eventually people will know who you are and what you do, if trust is broken sorry means nothing, you can't keep lying until the end of time, that's just not possible, we know what you're up to, even if you fools us once we will still know in the end and guess what? we will stay idle forever? I bet not so keep lying until you fail at lying and the people will know the true face of vengeance and retribution you will feel the wrath I will guarantee you that

Brother Louie

I'm not a fan of Modern Talking but I love people who love me back I don't try to own them just teach them a lesson so they can find the purpose, this seems like a never ending story to me but the more people that love you genuienly the more happy you are so try to seek out love rather than money or material goods, try to seek out respect and share to one another the love you have to give sometimes you will face challanges but it is never that hard to do you have to keep in mind that we are different and some of us never find the purpose of life and it is such a shame because without a purpose in life you drift around never getting anywhere, and say so because people like me and the people that I love and share these things with know there is something far greater than ourselves out there and we have to reach out and grab it, of course there are people who cheat and lie and hate but those people are mad inside because they can't do what I am about to do, they can't see like I see things and this is why they are mad about it because they can't be me, I am the only me in this universe, nobody is perfect but we all are unique

I am because WE are

This is the fundamental study of Ubuntu which says that I am because WE are because if We are not then I am not, we cannot live by ourselves we cannot exist if there was only I or one man or one woman I exist because WE exist and this is the fundament of the Aftican tribe, we cannot live by ourselves and we are in search of a tribe that accepts us as we are, there is no single man or woman all alone, we exist in different cultures as together not by our own selves we cannot stand alone in front of the enemy, we only can stand united in defeating the enemy inside of us all

Crazy Thoughts

 They say I am crazy because they do not understand my means, they can do nothing to change it, I still am who I am even if they think I am bipolar it really does not matter but I see all they want is to control me but with the means of necessity that is to be afraid of them, and why is that? you say, the need to control someone comes in a way that only causes pain to them because I am the victim not them, they are afraid because If I do not do what they say it will be bad for me for the rest of my entire life

Lying

 Why is there so many lies in the world? Because I have a moment of inspiration right now I would say that we lie to protect ourselves because the truth hurts and we don't want no pain in our lives, almost as if pain is inevitable you are still going to get hurt but only with a lie, this is why we lie to protect ourselves but sometimes we want to tell the truth but it is impossible because people do not understand and especially doctors don't get it , to be trustworthy you have to earn your trust it is not given to you it is practiced every single day in and out and until you don't make that commitment to yourself you will never be successful and fear as no correlation with lies you can be fearless and still lie, that is just the way it is.

The Gifts

In my country they say that God gives you gifts but he does not put them in your hands, you have to take them from him, so what do we understand here? What is happening to humans? God gifts us sometimes but we have to reach out to God and take them, he gives but we have to take, it goes both ways, I hope one day when I am going to be older I would realise what precious gift life is, sometimes I want to scare people off because I am a man, and I am strong, I do not want to be afraid anymore, fear is for children, when you grow up as a man, you realise that the kid inside of you knocks at your door wanting to come into your life, my kid, my childhood was I would say full of adversity, but when a kid comes into my life I welcome him and the whole world welcomes him and I just know he's going to be king one day because his father was a king and his father's father was a king, and this is how kings never die, a clown cannot birth a king, only a king can make a king, and the woman watches and welcomes the kid into the world.

The Purpose

The purpose is just to wait and die, just wait and wait for the end to happen, eventually it will happen, you will die inside, you have to kill your feelings to be heartless, to be fearless, just wait to die inside, kill your feelings, be like a machiene be, un-human, be a monster, make them fear you, fear what you can be, by just being yourself, kill your inner kid, child, be a cold hearted predator, you see your prey, and get out for it, it's yours, in this life you have to be the hunter, and not the prey, this is how you win in life, offensive is always a good defense, stay strong my brothers💪🏼

Money Stacks

Is it not wierd how we tend to spend so much money when we have it? It is like when you have money all they want us to do is to spend it as quickly as possible? It is stupid and wierd if you do not find a method to save your money you will spend it on unnecesary things and all your money will vanish and you will have nothing left for your kids for your schools for anything and has a return back, because if you do not save your money then who will? The thing is money comes to you but you decide on how you spend it, it can go really fast but if you do not have a method to make your money stay at you then you have something that is draining you of your money, the most common things is that your money can go from you just as easily like it came to you, it is imperiously that you do not give your money to anybody else unless you have no choice but to give it, if it is your property you have no obligation to give it to anybody else but yourself, if you buy cheap things that are UNNECESARY you will have nothing in the end, and if you do not understand this you clearly have a problem with money and not with people.

Yup Yupp Yuppp

 Why do we work out? I don't know. Why do we exercise? I don't know. Why do we put up the effort to improve? Why do we try our best and still fail? Why don't we get up and fight again? Fear is one of the reasons, the second is the control of fear, the third is the ability to witness your fear and look it in the eye and say I beat you, the way you defeat your fear is very hard, it is one of the most important moments of your life, the day you were born and the day you find out why. Of course every human is born afraid, there is no man/woman/boy/or girl, who is not afraid, but on the path of life you find something, something you are proud of and it is no shame to have it, you find yourself, long long lost self, the kid inside of you who wants to wake up from that bad nightmare you had, the first step in defeating your fear is very scary, you just have to witness it, to know that you are still afraid, you are not defeated by fear but it is frustrating to stay like that, that is why we work out, work our asses off in the gym and prepare for the worst, because fear is a heavy feeling . I know but I can't do too much about it because everybody has it, and some of us know this that it can be defeated, you have to defeat the demon inside, there is always light and dark, and by far the most important thing to know is that you can do both good and bad, but the enemy is inside of you this is why this is so funny that you are your own enemy, and that being said, it is just to calm down some of you who might think somebody hurts you, nobody does, the pain is in the fear, find the end of the pain and you become fearless.

How to feel alive again?

When life brings you down you feel like you can't get up, you feel small and little and after that when the time comes to be your own man, when the time comes to man up, you take the chance and lose it with all your heart, you explode, like a river with water you give up and grow right back again, there is no "me" or "we" or anything you just want to blow up, move on, make money, and lose yourself in the process, you feel like going crazy about it but you know the road, you know the path, you know what you can do and there is no stopping us because we are the ones who make our lives worth living not anybody else, we are responsable for our lives and that is the most precious fact there is, no one is in charge of our lives except us, we have to take care of ourselves forst and after that the others.

Risk and Chance

How can you evolve as a human being without taking any risks, this is what I do not understand, how can you make it without risking something, it's not about being paid it's about chance, the chances we take may lead somewhere or not but how can you know if you do not risk it yourself and try to saboutage yourself by thinking you are not worth the risk, let me tell you something, you are worth the risk and you are worth the chance, living life without taking any risks would be boring and I will rather be dead if I do not take any chances, I like to live life on the edge and will try to take as many chances as I can because now I know what to do to make myself happy.

Systems above Systems

I can't stress enough about systems, Sometimes I wish I knew programming, it will be a big BOOM if I knew how to program aplications and web pages but I guess I would just dream it and don't do it because dreaming is a way of finding out what you are really capable of a system is not a bad thing if you understand it it comes logical it's like math but in words, the bitcoin's white paper is actually a system laid out on paper it's easy these things have been done before but have to understand that the system you make will be beneficial to someone even yourself included if people do not agree it is not my problem, people will agree on it if they understand it, if not , they lose the abolity to use the system how they desire because I am above the rim and can't get back down ever.

Create Something

When I was a kid I wanted to be like my grandfather, to be an inventor, I did not knew what life had reserved for me, an inventor creates things, and that was my dream I wanted to be a creator ,it was like I knew what the future had for me, it was like I could see in the future and it was amazing, I truly had the american dream in me, or even the Romanian dream, but when I grew up I had to hold on to that dream to that passion, to become who I wanted to be, an inventor like my grandfather, but at 21 years old something happened and changed me, I was destroyed , my heart broken, I got depressed, I see only failure, I had to comply, I couldn't do anything, even my work in the college was tough, I published my paper to finish college about the Moldovian Republic's integration in the European Union, thankfully I managed to finish college just being diagnosed, but I had to have that will power to finish it, I was depressed and heartbroken so I started to take on medication, each day, until I made a successful move, and that was creating my own youtube channel, then I clicked, something in my life changed and I decided I would do anything to be successful ob youtube, after that I even started writing about stuff, firstly i paid money to have a blog and after that I managed to find something free without paying to write and I think this is my road honestly, it may not be the best or the easiest road but it's my road so I'm going to follow it.  😅

Low on Money

Because I am retired I think because of my condition I cannot call it a disease it's a disorder, I can't have a job because I am discriminated by my co-workers I cannot play a team game in a company because they discriminate me for being different, I say , why is it this way? People do not make the difference from being mentally ill to having a disorder and being called crazy by some people, this might hurt but it is the truth, how can you work in a team where they think you are crazy and call you crazy? Is there any trust in that company or you are being fired from a job because you are different, I do not want a job where I am pointed out for being myself, when you have will power you make a way, you create a way you do not sit like a sheep to be commanded, you rebel and that rebel comes from the fruits of power you have been given, some are violent, some are cruel I just don't give a damn, life is not fair and never was, I will not stay idle and blind, I will open my eyes and move on.

Ex Lovers

They don't know we hated each minute together at least I hated one girl cause the next was the best, understand why you fail and keep pushing on, see yourself playing the game of life, make your life like a story, make yourself the center of your univers, somebody will come to save you from yourself, someone will love you for who you are, but patience, work, dedication and not hate will open up new ways to see into the future and create your own future, take responsibility for your life and do not blame life itself for happening for you because nature is smarter than people think and we will continue to survive to move on, it does not matter how much you failed in your past it really is irrelevant, you can change that, and they will cry after you because you are leaving them like you throw the trash in the garbage car.

Down in History

I guess this is just fate, my history was full of troubles I think my real life actually began in my teens when I decided to live my life while I still have it, I was passionate about technology from an early age and I think my life would have been very different without my computer, but all I have now is my family because computers can't replace humans, we need each other but I just guess relationships are not fore because sometimes I think of myself what the hell did I did wrong to make them fail? I guess just women don't like me for some reason because some of them they just give up on you, they always crave more , and even the sea has a bottom you can't drain the ocean of it's water but you can make someone feel less special in a way you an drain a person of its character in a way that he will never be that kid again ever, those dreams will never come back again, he will never come back, we don't want the same girl who cheated lied and make me crazy, i'm just pissed cause it was, I hope I don't ever make the same mistake twoce cause I was a fool in my teenage years.

Chances we take

I cannot stress myself as much as I want second chances I do not have much in life, I am not famous, I am not rich, I do not break the law, I do not do drugs but I want to have the chance to change my life because, my life is so hard, I was diagnosed with bipolar syndrome and I have a tough day to get by with all the medication and pain killer , some days I feel so bad and so lost in my sleeping schedule because I have a tough time staying awake all day, and all I have to say is that I try to not give up , but I am broke, I can't even afford to pay for a decent blog I need a free one because I am so confused, and I ask why, i think it's just fate, some people are different and that is ok, I never wanted to be normal anyway...

What do you mean?

I see a lot of people getting depressed by their partner in life, the fact that they cannot have a relationship because nobody loves them and all I have to say about that is that if you find the right person for you, it will be way more easier for you to cope with the fact that not all people were made to love you, accept the fact that some peopleay even hate you and some people don't care about you, you have fans, you have somebody who loves you for who you truely are but not everybody likes you and that is fine, all I want is for me to like myself, I am not for everybody and I know that, I am limited edition 🤣🤣🤣

The Luck of the Draw

 I always consider myself as being able to do some certain things even if no one is watching me I could do a lot more and pretend that myself is the inner I there is no "WE" without the "I" if you identify as yourself as being yourself as schooling yourself, you as being the teacher and the student of yourself then you identify yourself as an "I" where you are the center of your universe, the continuation of "WE" is when you identify another "I" and you see yourself in that person as we match up together you know it is possible to make bonds and form relationships when the "I" becomes "US" like "WE" then you have to multiply yourself patiently and get born again in people's conscience.

Will Power

What is will power? I would say it is the desire to achieve what you want in the fastest way possible before the chance vanishes and you go back to the base version of yourself the chances you take and the chances you miss, this is what I would say will power is, the ability to take chances as they show up and not just wait to pass them by, the idea of just do it is a very good one, thinking too much about something can actually make you dizzy a lot so don't think and just act on it. Good chances everybody! And good luck!

Heroes of the Storm

 This is one of my gameplays with li - ming in heroes of the storm, I have no doubt it is going to be big but if I have some comments to put into my gameplay it is that I wish I had more balls to do this everyday not just a few times a week so I have to push harder if I want to get bigger this is the law of nature I hope you like it

If I fail I will win

If the first video idea does not work I am going to try the second one, I have been destroyed before by my actions and today I choose to change that, If I fail one time, then I fail again, I am going to make one that wins, be sure of that I will never give up, and all those who oppose me will be destroyed by my will power, I will never let my guard down and I will choose to fight even if I am 90 years old I do not care I will pick myself up and go on and try again and if I fail again I will continue to do the same things as I grow until I win, there is no option for me to give up and cry, yes I wasted 5 years of my life to get down the drain but I do not care I will lift myself up and do it again, there is no lose only learning and moving on, I do not care who hates me I am going to make it in the end.

Write to Earn

 I had a blog on wordpress.com which I paid to write I did a big fail in 2 years i only earned 2$ so I thought I should get something more easy than just paying to write with no income, I should get some from this blog, on blogger it is easy to write and apply rather than wordpress because there you have to pay to write while here it's free which choice will you take? I consider myself a person who can take on any decision easily I do not find taking action or decisions hard for me, I take them easily calculating the probability of succees on each one, I know I am not a perfect writer because english is my second language a I prefer writing english love letters because it is an easy language for me to understand and I really need it so when you feel like you don't know what to do you usually have two choices or more, so take on the easiest choice wich will make your life easier not harder because nobody wants a hard life, life is already hard by default so try to enjoy the ride to the stars

Inspiration

Today I was in the park, I had a notebook at me and a pen, I sat on the bench and started writing my thoughts on the paper, it was something new to me to write on my book in the park I never did this before so I had kind of some inspiration, I listened to the people that walked by me and I thought what were they thinking of me sitting on a bench and writing on my notebook in the park? What was their thoughts about it, have they ever seen this before or I was just some wierdo creeping writing some shit down, I had nothing to do so I started thinking of my blog and web page, I know I sucked, at first I was so disapointed that I did not have my own blog to own it and started creeping out what people might think of me writing wierd stuff on my book, and after that I got up and left thinking I should write more because it does me good to my soul, I still have it tho, I think of the gym and video games and the failed attempts on trying to write a book about financial economy, I know I am a fool thinking I could write a book about entrepreneurship because I am broke most of the time and you cannot accept financial information from someone who does not have finances, so I moved on.

Rambo Style

Some people do not understand that doing something you love does not imply getting hired or getting a job, if you make it you make it and if you don't you don't ,it's very risky these days because they do not know and I have no time to explain I am just going to hold my ground and let them do their work but today is a good day and I have a cool vibe so I am going to relax on the web and could not care less on what is happening in the world, I got my own world to take care of.

One day or Day One

If I work from home there can be no problem, there is a problem if you do not work at all, but any activity is welcomed , the bad part is that I have to do it all alone and by myself to win, because I cannot hire somebody to do the work for me because and in fact the problem is that I have to work somewhere and I choose to work wherever I want, of course I might fail, but at least I fail at my own terms but no it's different because I have no family where to hide, always choose to look at the bright side and the bright side is that my family is the best, I don't usually talk about this but I would do anything for an extra $ lol of course I'm getting paid but have to work anyway so choose your path carefully because you might not know where it leads in the end.

The Man The Myth The Legend

As a kid I always admired courage but not stupid courage like you see most these days I had no clue that it will come to this day where I recognize the game or the situation I am in, maybe no one believes in me and I am the only one who believes I have no clue but today I am going to be a Starboy so check up my success where you can find me on YouTube and Blogger even if you may not like me I bother no one so I am a lonely man catching up in today's world full of dangers and above that it can be amazing one day when I will wake up in Heaven, until then have a great night and sleep welly friends ♥️

Space Systems

 If you dream about stars or being a starboy then you might just have to think how the space works, either you fly with a rocket ship or something like that or even dream about colonizing other planets if you think so it may be possible one day but you only get what you give so in my opinion I do not think it's unrealistic I just think it's too hard to colonize other planets if you think so like me hit me up and let's have a chat about space, time and light speed, but sometimes it's just better being the good person who has high aspirations than rather just crying yourself to sleep every night, I'm good with dreaming but when the dream ends, it won't die it will still be out there somewhere waiting for you to recognize it so, might just well take a chance and go for it, to the moon and back